The struggle with being unemployed is real.
So many times people ask me what I do for a living and I tell them I’m a missionary. What I don’t tell them is that my missionary status is not full time, so that means I have no actual income coming in. When I fund raise it is all for the organization I’m going with and nothing for me.
So I work, and when I say work I mean I WORK, probably harder than I have with any other job, but I don’t make any money. Not one dime.
I have helped build a home. I’ve worked on a coffee farm. I’ve taught at a school. I have helped build an ice skating rink. And none of that even holds a candle to the work it is to raise almost $40,000. But none of that has come with any monetary compensation.
While on the field, it’s not a big deal. I’m so excited to be where ever I am. I’m so happy to see the faces of the people I’m helping. Money just doesn’t even matter to me.
But then I come home. And here in America it is the WORST not to have money. Almost everything costs something. Even the free stuff I have to pay for gas to get there. I’m bombarded all the time with ads and posts that make me want to purchase something. And don’t even get me started about driving past one of the places I used to love to buy food from.
So needless to say, this sucks.
And what makes it even worse is the pressure that I get from others. I can’t tell you how many times I get asked why I don’t have a job. How in the world am I supposed to know that? I apply to jobs, ones that I’m qualified for, ones that I’m not. I’ve even applied for part time seasonal work only to be flat out rejected. (Thanks Target)
I have interviewed with so many companies about getting back in with insurance. And every time they are so excited about getting me in the door and then BOOM nothing. And what’s most surprising is the amount of companies that don’t even bother getting back to you. You are a corporate company; there should be an expectation of a response.
I don’t really want to get back into insurance but that is the only industry that is even looking at me. I apply to all these nonprofits and they won’t even give me a chance. But that doesn’t mean I’m not still trying. I make an attempt every day to apply to at least one job.
So I apply and apply and apply with no results. But you know what? God keeps providing. I am not missing paying anything I have to pay for. I’m still getting the opportunity to travel and work with missions. And somehow I always end up with enough money to pay for the items I need like shampoo.
God is with me in this. And as much as it sucks going through this time of need I am reminded daily that the Lord provides.
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?[a] 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin,29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Oh yeah, and this right here.